How does one feel the day and night before their first chemo procedure? I can only tell you what I am feeling. I am not a nervous person, but for some reason, all day today (Sunday) I was feeling quite nervous and shaky. Believe me, this was all subconscious as I am not consciously thinking about my treatment. I didn’t sleep very well last night. Today I slept for 2 1/5 hours during the day and, in fact, thought it was morning when I awoke. And I did feel better and less shaky after that beautiful nap. So, maybe I was shaky from not enough sleep last night. I will let it go at that.
And now it is ten at night and I am thinking again about my condition. I gave it almost four months on a strict healing diet; exercised and felt quite good about my natural healing regime. I had every expectation that when I took my PET test, it would show either a decrease in my two tumors or at least a status quo. So, you can see, my mind was positive and I was optimistic. I had the PET test and the doctor called me within two days with the results. The present tumors that I had, had not shrunk and, in fact, increased in size while two new ones appeared in my chest. Needless to say, I was really surprised as I gave it my all using the diet, meditation, exercising, walking and really feeling good. But with this new news I have made the decision to have my medical treatment which includes three sessions of two hours each, three weeks apart. Tomorrow is my first session and I will write about it after my first one. We all make different choices at different times in our lives. I pray that this is my next good choice.
In the meantime, perhaps some of my nervousness today was due to watching some of the TV news. We have had a terrifying week in our country. The Republican party is still trying to invalidate the duly elected President-Elect Joe Biden and Vice-President Elect Kamala Harris. This came on a day (Wednesday) which will live in infamy in the history of our country. Gangs of unruly violators of our Constitution, egged on and led by donald trump, stormed our national Capitol while the voting was going on inside to validate the results of the Electoral College. Many of the rioters were carrying guns, broke windows to gain entrance to the building, had plastic tie ups to use as handcuffs of our members of Congress. Outside the building was an apparatus set up with a noose. They stormed the grounds and the building with very little opposition from the Park Police. And not until an hour and a half later did law enforcement officers finally arrived to quell the outrage. Can you even imagine what it was like for those Senators and Congressmen and Congresswomen hiding behind doors that were being banged on my these domestic terrorists? The Well of the building had to be completely vacated as the terrorists stormed into the area. It was uncanny to see one of them sitting in Speaker of the House, Nancy Pelosi’s Chair. They invaded offices, broke furniture and destroyed paper documents, stole computers and furniture. Again, I say how can we even imagine what fear those inside must have felt. Frankly, and still do.
Tomorrow, (Monday) Nancy Pelosi will present an article of impeachment against donald trump for his role in inciting dangerous activity against our Constitution. There have been arrests already of some of the terrorists and the public is calling for trump’s immediate removal from office.
The new President will be sworn in on Monday January 20th, eleven days from now. Let us pray it will be a peaceful Inauguration.
I will blog after my first treatment and also keep you up to date on our national scene. For me, it is fascinating to participate in my own, personal drama and also the bigger picture of our future in our country which will effect us all.
